Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Its been awhile. And I apologize. But honestly, I'm really not that sorry. You see, winter just does me in every. single. stinkin. time. I lose motivation for the simplest things, like sweeping my kitchen, which I do daily. It becomes SO boring and SO mundane rather than just whats needed. Because otherwise we start playing soccer with all the food Britt drops over the side of her highchair. She's getting better at that. Kinda.

We are probably one week away from completing our dossier paperwork. We are waiting on one stupid piece of paper from the United States Citizen and Immigration Services to grant us permission to adopt an immigrant. Its stupid. But necessary.

After that, we notarize and copy that puppy and boom. ship that paperwork to VA where it will be looked over by our family coordinator, LuLu, (she's awesome) and then they will send it to Ethiopia. In which we will call our current status DTE: Dossier to Ethiopia.

And then we wait.

For who knows how long. But at this point, I just want all this stupid paperwork that has taken us 7 months to compile out of my hands and into the hands of the people who have the power to give an orphan a forever family.

This process has by no means been easy. At all. Nothing has really gone wrong but its been the most stretching process of our marriage, of my heart and tongue, (definitely my tongue. learning how and when NOT to use it. which happens to be a lot) and of my heart.

But I guess it has done exactly what it was meant to do. It has drawn me closer to the foot of the Cross. It has created an even deeper desire and longing to be made into His image. It has forced me to realize that just because God talks to me one way, it is not THE way and the way that He has made me to process things is not the ONLY way to process them. It has been a test of faith. A test to trust the He does see me, that He is listening to me, and that regardless of whether or not I see visible answers or things are getting harder, not easier, that He answering my plea for sanctification, for a renewed heart that wants nothing other than to bring Him glory and to bring children who need a home into our family. It has not been easy. Yesterday sucked. Yesterday was a battle every minute to walk in the Spirit and not in the flesh. Yesterday I felt so under attack by the enemy who wants to destroy, discourage and wreak havoc on my life.

But He is my Rock. He is my Fortress. And it is in Him that I will place my trust. So if you think of me pray. Pray that I will be faithful to cling to Him. That I will speak Truth over and over agains the lies that Satan so quickly places in my heart and head. Pray that Eric and I are unified, even when we disagree. Pray that the Lord will bind the enemy and his workers and place a hedge of protection around our home, our hearts and our minds. And pray that He is glorified in all things.


Jennie said...

I'm so glad I checked your site today (don't check mine, there's nothing new...)!! Happy to hear you're almost ready to wait for your new child or children. That will be good time to rest and hope and pray with Eric and Britt and let some of the stress of these past 7 months fade. For my family, waiting for Chloe and Jill was hard, but full of anticipation!

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